The Border

I feel that I've read a lot of heavy books lately, perhaps not the greatest idea. 

The Border was frankly also uncomfortable to read, especially when the people are retelling all their sufferings that happened in the various wars and conflicts. The following quotation really hit hard, and is an interesting comparison to the themes of family in previous books:

"Why do we need houses? Why do we need to get married? We need houses to have something to come back to. A house should be warm, it should be a place where you are not cold. Siberia was cold and draughty, and I was always freezing. I never want to experience that again, I want a warm house. And we get married so there is someone waiting, even if you go far, far away, even if you go to prison."

被梦带走

oooof 

It really has been a while since this song's release. The first line is great.

我们都是泡沫轻轻一碰就破 眼泪是爱的花火
昨天就像飞机穿过我的窗口 我什么都没有

我摊开了双手妳予取予求 直到妳想自由
痛苦的时候我不会闪躲 就像树叶甘心为春风吹落

只是简简单单的爱过 我还是我
简简单单的伤过 就不算白活
简简单单的疯过 被梦带走
当故事结束之后 心也习惯一个人寂寞

我摊开了双手 妳予取予求 知道妳想自由
痛苦的时候 我不会闪躲 就像树叶甘心为春风吹落

只是简简单单的爱过 我还是我
简简单单的伤过 就不算白活
简简单单的疯过 被梦带走
当故事结束之后 心也习惯一个人寂寞

只是简简单单的爱过 我还是我
简简单单的伤过 就不算白活
简简单单的疯过 被梦带走
当故事结束之后 心也习惯一个人寂寞

borrowed

Furnishing is a whole different end game that I am entirely unprepared for. But I'm largely satisfied with the little garden corner of my Gridania apartment. Tho it only works when viewed from certain angles because I didn't float the phasmascape up. 

trattoria

 Things I ate recently:

Am immensely disappointed that my Bulk Barn didn't have dried sour cherries but golden raisons are more photogenic? Especially with some raw pu'er. Am even more disappointed that my brick of White Whale is literally a brick, I can only get dusts off so I guess one month I will brew the entire brick up and be super caffeinated. 

It doesn't feel like home until I have the ground meat mixture in my fridge. Does it translate to ragu in english, but it's not saucy? 

Luroufan with a lot of green onions

Le Swan, highly recommend.

Thai red curry, with the only acceptable fish ball which is the kind that's stuffed with meat.

white

I really have a thing for pink foliaged trees...Limsa and Ul'dah during Little Ladies' Day event plus a bonus gatherer's glam show-off:

I'm not alive without you

 A brief interlude of another Epik High & Lee Hi song but not part of Epik High Is Here. 

I'm grateful that there seem to always be a new Epik High album to listen on repeat whenever I need to cope with an overflow of feelings haha. I am absolutely a champion at catastrophizing, but at least I know better than to act on it. Having had a panic attack once, it was a really weird feeling being woken up by the waves of anxiety. I thought it would've maybe melded into a nightmare or something instead? Interesting experience haha.

The Great Gatsby

I'm not sure what I think of this book, if much at all. The top search results for reviews of this book all seem to be pondering why it's read so often and how everyone misunderstands the book *shurg* The writing style is pretty nice tho, I particularly like this passage:

His heart beat faster and faster as Daisy's white face came up to his own. He knew that when he kissed this girl, and forever wed his unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again like the mind of God. So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the tuning fork that had been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lips' touch she blossomed for him like a flower and the incarnation was complete.

Through all he said, even through his appalling sentimentality, I was reminded of something- an elusive rhythm, a fragment of lost words, that I had heard somewhere a long time ago. For a moment a phrase tried to take shape in my mouth and my lips parted like a dumb man's, as though there was more struggling upon them than a wisp of startled air. But they made no sound and what I had almost remembered was uncommunicable forever.