And the other thing is fashion videos! Happy to have found another content creator that I love, putting Mina Le up in my pantheon with Bliss Foster and AhaLolo. The common thread is the context they provide to fashion.
31 October 2022
29 October 2022
but if you take a look at me that really isn't what you see
Listening to music is one of two things that I have been able to summon the will to do.
27 October 2022
25 October 2022
and in the times that I wish I was younger with hunger to be somebody
23 October 2022
surfliner
I had really high expectations of the train ride between LA and SD due to my PM saying how there were snacks AND wifi was great. There were indeed snacks but they were meh, and wifi was barely usable. But it was still a great train ride because the station was beautiful and the scenery along the way even more so! I can see why so many artists are inspired by the Californian landscape.
21 October 2022
Q
Been a very long time since I had omakase and Q certainly lived up to expectations! Even better that I wasn't stuffed after the full course, although the other dining parties did order extra.
Food consisted of:
- Oyster (from BC) with dashi vinegar, soooo good with the dashi vinegar
- Giant octopus with vinegar
- Hirame (fluke) with soy(?) sauce, bonito and green onion
- Akami with yuzu miso sauce
- Kai (red snapper) with wasabi and sesame sauce
- Hokkaido hairy crab, served plain and I can attest to how good the crab itself is
- Chutoro, steamed abalone, scallop sashimi
- Hokkaido uni
- Shima-aje (stripe jack)
- Kue (longtooth grouper)
- Premium snapper (??)
- Akamutsu (black throat sea perch), still my favourite fish for sushi
- ??? didn't hear the same of this well but its texturally like between a firm white fish and squid or octopus
- Otoro
- Tiger prawn
- Anago
- Ikura
- Tomago
19 October 2022
The Broad
This is officially my favourite gallery space architecturally, bonus points for the little windows into their storage area. Kinda laughing at how Edward referred to it as the cheese grater building tho XD
My favourite piece from their permanent collection, and also probably my favourite contemporary art piece, is Cairo by Julie Mehretu. Mostly because it actually reminds me a lot of Chinese ink painting from afar, but then close up you can see the layers of details, including technical architectural drawings.
17 October 2022
dtla
I am less late for LA photos! First batch are the cityscape shots:
15 October 2022
13 October 2022
11 October 2022
tuberose
The only vaguely appropriate music I have to practice bachata steps to. Oh boy is my library filled with sad or thumptumpthump songs...
09 October 2022
tap
Went to my first bachata lesson some days ago, and the saying that raiding is like dancing (or in my case vice versa due to the order I tried things) is absolutely true. There's the prog period where I'm actively thinking of the next steps/mechanic, and because of that I'm stiff af. Then once things are committed to muscle memory do things flow smoothly.
Class was fun tho! I'll take the small victories and hopefully try a few other classes post UK.
07 October 2022
05 October 2022
pieces
Written a while ago but posted for records:
It is surprisingly difficult to write about actual personal stuff on a supposedly personal blog. If I recall my posts in the first few years of this blogs existence, they were actually about things happening in my life but at some point I stopped writing about those and it became more of an outlet for my hobbies that were largely single person activities.
But I digress. I was reading a post (as I tend to do when trying but unsuccessfully falling asleep) from last December in which I described work as stable. It comes at such a shock to me right now, less than a year later. Was I delusional back then? Was I actually ok? Do I actually have Endwalker release to thank for recovering my sanity more than I already realize? I took a week of PTO for my birthday, and it made me finally accept that even without the immediate threat of work, I still feel like shit. There was a discussion with a friend about the difference in meaning between the expressions “death by a thousand cuts”, “frog in boiling water”, and “the last straw that broke the camel’s back”; I’m still not sure which expression, if any, is the accurate description for what happened.
Another old post from July said I wasn’t feeling joy of cooking and eating for a few months now. That’s really gotten worse, but again masked with the excuse that I haven’t stayed in my apartment enough to get into the swing of meal planning and grocery shopping. Bless my mom for delivering her garden produce to me so I’m mostly eating better than just noodles on many days.
At least I’m out of the denial phase now? Lots of options to make things better but obviously none of them are appealing at the moment. I have tons of excuses to not even escape from commitments that I can just drop (totally why I felt the definition of burn out in Can’t Even is so relatable). Not having the willpower or sufficient desire to change is why I procrastinated on starting therapy for so long. There’s a reason why velleity is my favourite word 😅 Also appreciating “sleepless_____” in a whole new way.
Not sure how concerned I should be that my emotions are not accessible? Maybe that’s too strong of a statement. I feel a whole lot of stress LOL but also like moments of enjoyment. But that’s kinda about it, there were certain events that happened that should’ve elicited frustration and sadness and those are strangely absent. Am I totally looking at a blessing in the wrong light?
Maybe a leave of absence starting next year is necessary. That’s also a long time to survive until. Meanwhile I consider the very good question of: if I make time to spare, what do I actually do with it to feel better?
03 October 2022
crisp
Salting zucchini, squeezing the excess water out, then stir frying is indeed life changing with regards to the texture. Too bad its season is over already welp.
01 October 2022
left to sifting through faded memories
Also more great jazz remixes of FF14:
It also seems like I never posted the original version of this song?? It's carried me through many work days. Lyrics are fantastic too, alternate favourite line is "Quick to their ends, our candles burn until we're free"
All our splendour bathed black in silence
Our surrender a sombre reverie
Slowly drifting down into twilight
Left to sifting through faded memories
Know our places, for worth is wordless
Evanescent, this writing on the wall
Brother stay this descent to madness
Come and save us. Catch us before we fall
Like broken angels, wingless, cast from heavens' gates
(Our slumb'ring demons awake)
We only fly when falling, falling far from grace
(Hell take us, heaven can wait)
Our lives a message in a bottle cast to sea
(Disgrace untold and unseen)
Quick to their ends, our candles burn until we're free
In monochrome melodies
Our tears are painted in red
(Bleeding to the edge)
Deep inside we're nothing more
Than scions and sinners
In the rain
Do light and darkness fade
Yes, time circles endlessly
The hands of fate trained ahead
(Pointing to the edge)
All things change, drawn to the flame
To rise from the ashes.
To begin
We first must see the end
Rock of ages, we cast the first stone
In our cages, we know not what we do
Indecision here at the crossroads
Recognition, tomorrow's come too soon
Follow blindly like lambs to slaughter
At the mercy of those who ply the sword
As our song wends dead underwater
We're forgotten for now and evermore
Without a compass wand'ring lost in lies of faith
(Faith slowly wasting away)
Only alive in fighting Death's amber embrace
(Our hearts beat loud, unafraid)
On Hands and knees we pray to gods we've never seen
(Come shadow, come follow me)
The final hour upon us, no more time to breathe
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I also notice I tend to post in pairs now. It's not really been intentional tho.